June 29, 2024

Halfway Through The Year

We're halfway through 2024, so let's catch up!

Sometimes I get in the rut of feeling like I haven't done enough or accomplished enough at certain markers in time - for example, being halfway through the year. There's a lot that's happened so far this year, but also, nothing at all. As an enneagram three, I feel like accomplishment has to be happening all the time - at work, at home, etc. I have to constantly remind myself that rest is an accomplishment too. One of my "outs" for 2024 was comparison, and I have to admit, it's been a struggle lately. 

Summertime always gives the illusion that everyone is living a better life than you - traveling, celebrating, schmoozing, boozing. In short, "the fear of missing out." As an introvert, I love missing out most of the time. Lately, though, I've been really critical of myself for being such a homebody. I talked to my therapist about it recently because it had gotten me in such a rut. I needed some reassurance that I was normal and justified. Working in education, it often feels like you're working for the reward of summer break. But this year when the break came, I felt "off." I put a lot into work this past year and it was as though I had no idea how to not be going, going when the time came to rest. Summer has always brought a bit of melancholy for me, as well - I'm much more of a fall/winter girl. I think all those emotions hit extra hard this year.

I'm writing this update the night before I leave for New York City - a trip that was planned out of necessity for escape, girl time, and me time. Trips to New York bring me to life, and right now there's nothing I need more. I'm sharing this update as a hug for anyone else who is feeling a little off course as June is coming to a close and we're heading into the second half of the year. You're going to be ok and there's nothing wrong with feeling your way through uncomfortable emotions. Being human is really hard.

Whatever brings you joy and peace over the next six months, I wish all of that for you, friends!



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